On Saturday 8th October our little P came into the world at 11.23am
(Birth Story to follow)
and the last 6 weeks have gone by in a blur,
even though it feels like he’s been part of our family forever.

I can’t believe he is now 6 weeks old.
He has become much more alert, spending longer periods awake and looking around and has just started to smile that big gummy smile.
He makes little noises, cooing and squeaking as well as the obvious crying and screaming when he so desperately needs milk or a cuddle.
He also plays with his tongue, sticking it out and moving it around
inside his bottom lip.

When asleep he snores which is so damn cute.
He loves to sleep on his front but at the minute I’ll only allow that when I’m sat right next to him (just incase) but he finds it harder to settle on his back, so we’ve started to use a dummy.  We just have to remember to remove it before 3.5yrs (its a hell of a lot harder to deal with the sleepless nights then).

As a second child I feel like i haven’t spent as much time snuggling up to him, smelling that beautiful newborn smell and just breathing in every minute as I did when LB was tiny.
With LB to entertain and get to and from preschool,
as well as a business and house to run its been harder this time to just sit back and enjoy these moments.
I really must make more of an effort though, as when he is in my arms I feel completely at home

LB has taken to being a big brother so well.
He was desperate for his new sibling to be a boy and he was so excited that this came true. He completely dotes on him and wants to help in any way he can.  He has got a little jealous at times but generally he is as in love with his little bro as we are.

I look at P and I feel so unbelievably blessed
but at the same time so many other emotions.

I feel overwhelmed with the fact that I am now a mother of two.
I feel proud of my big boy and how great a big brother he already is.
I feel Guilt that I can’t split myself into a million different pieces to be with everyone and do everything all the time.
I feel Gratitude for all my family and friends who have been a great support
I feel scared that I might not do the best job at all of this.
I feel angry that the world seems to be becoming a worse place for our children.
I feel so unbelievably happy that I have two healthy children.

But most of all
I feel loved and like I’m in the best place in the world.

I would apologise for the baby spam but he’s just too darn cute.
How am i supposed to pick a favourite photo?

I’m linking up with Katie over at MummyDaddyMe for this weeks #Ordinary Moments